Her

Tragic means posess no end
I am writhened, can't see, say nor tell
She will make me die
Let me go outside
Leave her to die
Tearing myself apart, let her too far
Wanting too much to share, a sweetness, a life
Never should she know
But if I ever told - I'd say she abondoned me in the dark
Wanting herself to catch air
Watching me in all her glory
Sparing a sacred honor, making me scared in fear
Leaving a widowed lonesomeness
Feasting on my state of despair
It's her selfishness in this state of obstinate stress
She's acting on her cognition, imposing her state of confusion
Needing me in her troubles
Her facade, her fables
Putting me in distress!
Stress and  compress my love and freedom!
She feels my emotions are a game,
She will feed on them again when they are wholesome!

She looks at me with star-crossed eyes
There is love and misery
Oh, but I feel it to be
I cherish her and she enjoys my company
I feel for her, and she feels for me
It's a distinct wonder
How far we'd come and ended so
it creates a feeling of completion
An unusual irony
Two people meet and part everytime
Because there's no potential, either can see
I never needed her, and she never needed me
I am barely aware of what she will spare
But it might be, just might be, the next best thing that has happened to me
She really needs to take her time
To reach her, I need to get in line

Grind me, wind me, within...
Thinking of letting go, coz I have a lot hidden.
Secrecy indulges me as I emote my feelings to the world;
Inside me, behind me, all deju vus ridden.
So well thought-out, a kaleidoscope to envision.
And this state that is a complete dabauchery...
And this fate which is all slurry.
Oh, how I wish you could come see it too,
be inspired, and feel rapt as if from within.
Oh my, why would I lie,
If I wanted you to have a little empathy too?
Take as if all your world is mine, and you are a part of my dreams,
and I don't feel anything cause this is all what you expected me to be...
Ah, but no, I won't give up to your optimistic illusions...
Set yourself free for I have desire to left to just be!
I'm afraid, even if you lie, I'll still retain my control it seems...

This very reekingly familiar behaviour of hers each time she chooses to bounce back while also pretending to show more command on what she posesses, her actions still give the impression of someone unshroudingly coping up with things that they are disturbed by emotionally. Her internal sadness makes her vulnerable to any difficulties that she confronts. And just so she can cope up with them, she ends up being stubborn.
Her problem is actually her fear of enforcement of feelings that might agitate her as she is actually very tender-hearted inside, hyper sensitive and if anything is imposed on her, she has the potential to compromise but then again... She isn't really compromising because she is not content with her response. She is vigilent, and she trusts her senses.
She also chooses to judge herself as some one inferior if she observes someone who may possibly be struggling to make very humane contact with her and inspite of this, if they end up looking better off than her in any way... She does responds, because she wouldnt want to hurt you, but in the end it's just her curious instinctiveness that made her respond as well as she would have.
Although, her drive in her life is simply small happinesses and moments she cherishes and those she very intelligibly protects and is mighty posessive of. Some times, though, she ends up showing such intense vulnerability towards her sources of happiness that she falls on them, head over heels ready to form boundaries.... and these boundaries are only her emotions...
Once, if, they are lost due to any circumtances not in her control - like, fate, they finish... and she is at the same point again in her life... ashes of hurt, in her heart.... the dust of emotions rampant in her mind...
And all she could gather from the experience that fate made her witness, she falls low... so weak.. so shallow... until she realizes how life has nurtured her... and she stands up on her feet again - once again, ready to look at the world in the eye... and posess and gather all she can.. with her mind... with her heart... open her arms wide enough to conquer and posess all that she can gather in them...

"Her sadness causes her belittlement
Her fate holds her stubborn
For in her eyes, she held all weaknesses
They pour down on her... on her cheek, to her lips..."

Her state tortured
Her soul deprived
Of the once most wonderful things in her life
She wants to forgive and she chooses, too
Until the once most treasured things in her life
Hold her heart so tru'

But she loses her mind
When she learns time and again
In no one, whatsoever, will she ever be able to confine
She seeks forgiveness, yes, she seeks it from you
But if anyone would just try to listen, she would give in, too

Dont mercy upon me, she commands to thee
I ve chosen now this path for all time
I will get what I want and you wont be able to hide
For even if I have to steal it from you, I'd be glad to make it mine

But fate witnesses her adamant nature
And she leaves us to find
All the treasury of life stolen
It brings her a turmoil of shallow cheer
In darkness and full of longingness
Still her heart remains swollen

She s not willing to find the answer 'why?'
She does not choose to submiss to thee
Give her a kiss, let her risk, her insecurity

Alas! But she cries out of fear
You will make me loose my sanity
How dare you desire to play around with me?!
If I succumb myself, you'll leave
Leave me in shame, to cry invain
Until I loose all my energy
And this fate will dawn on me
Just like it had done before
On, and on it came,
Again and again and again...