Her

Tragic means posess no end
I am writhened, can't see, say nor tell
She will make me die
Let me go outside
Leave her to die
Tearing myself apart, let her too far
Wanting too much to share, a sweetness, a life
Never should she know
But if I ever told - I'd say she abondoned me in the dark
Wanting herself to catch air
Watching me in all her glory
Sparing a sacred honor, making me scared in fear
Leaving a widowed lonesomeness
Feasting on my state of despair
It's her selfishness in this state of obstinate stress
She's acting on her cognition, imposing her state of confusion
Needing me in her troubles
Her facade, her fables
Putting me in distress!
Stress and  compress my love and freedom!
She feels my emotions are a game,
She will feed on them again when they are wholesome!

She looks at me with star-crossed eyes
There is love and misery
Oh, but I feel it to be
I cherish her and she enjoys my company
I feel for her, and she feels for me
It's a distinct wonder
How far we'd come and ended so
it creates a feeling of completion
An unusual irony
Two people meet and part everytime
Because there's no potential, either can see
I never needed her, and she never needed me
I am barely aware of what she will spare
But it might be, just might be, the next best thing that has happened to me
She really needs to take her time
To reach her, I need to get in line

Grind me, wind me, within...
Thinking of letting go, coz I have a lot hidden.
Secrecy indulges me as I emote my feelings to the world;
Inside me, behind me, all deju vus ridden.
So well thought-out, a kaleidoscope to envision.
And this state that is a complete dabauchery...
And this fate which is all slurry.
Oh, how I wish you could come see it too,
be inspired, and feel rapt as if from within.
Oh my, why would I lie,
If I wanted you to have a little empathy too?
Take as if all your world is mine, and you are a part of my dreams,
and I don't feel anything cause this is all what you expected me to be...
Ah, but no, I won't give up to your optimistic illusions...
Set yourself free for I have desire to left to just be!
I'm afraid, even if you lie, I'll still retain my control it seems...